where cOws cOme hOmE

2006-10-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

Hey,

Oh man. It's been so long since i last blog.Finally, i don't have to do any cards and my spiritual homework. It's time to update this little blog.

What to say? I'm still working.Though Yufen keep scolding me for slacking during office hours. Can you believe it. We use our office phone to call our friends to call for this sat Poly zone bbq. I also fell asleep during lunch hour.Haha. That's Charmane. But Yufen also slacking away. She kept using the com to do her stuffd. So we're equal. HA!!

I really want to go shopping. I find that my carboard is empty. I need new clothes. HAHA. God had answered my prayer. I'm finally going shopping with the girls in my cell this thurs. yeah!! shopping , Here I Come!!

My schedule is always s tight. I hardly could make time to meet all my friendS and spend quality time with my family.

Let me tell you my this week schedule

MOnday-->having fever( went home straight after work)
Tuesday-->Prayer meeting
Wednesday-->Meeting my good friend Sam
Thursday--> Shopping with cgm
Friday--> BS and Class bbq
Saturday--> Cell grp and Zone Bbq
Sunday-->Service and fellowship

PAck right. see I told you.. don't believe!

OH yah, Anyway regarding today prayer meeting, No words could describe my actual feelings. I loved it.I really felt the presence of the lord. It really touched my heart. Thanks to that C guy. Thanks for the ride home. You really saved my life. Thanks so much..

2006-09-30T19:55:00.000+08:00

hi again,

I just came back from cell group at Jasmine's house.
I enjoyed cell group today.
I learned a lot from cell today.

WHy i can't seem to act normally whenever i face him.
Though he doesn't seem to give any affirmation regarding my art work.
Regarding the cards that i had make, i really put in my heart and soul to do it.
I just hope that the people will like it and will be encouraged to carry on fighting.
Always between us,there's no topic to talk.
It will always be silent.
Forget it, they will think that i am overly sensitive.
Then he will say, it is because you never take the initiative to talk to them la.
But it's not my fault, I really do not know why to say.
He will say that by now, i would have know how to flow in their chemistry.
how to??
i really do not know.
Nvm, just leave in this way.
Because i got no other solutions on what to do already.
Suzy said this during cell group that she got to be happy first in order to find your partner.
I'm never happy whenever i thought of this.
Should just leave it aside.
Don't think too much..
I got lots more things to concentrate on.
How i wish there's school now.
So i drown myself with the books
Let me be busy with things so that i will not think too much.

2006-09-29T17:25:00.000+08:00

Hello

No words could describe the hurt that i had felt yesterday night at adjunied MRT station
It's not only physical hurt but only emotional hurt.
It all happened within 1 sec.
Before i knew it.
It came.
It almost made me unconsious
I could feel that vibration going up to my brain through the nervous system
No tear was shed then.
I was too shocked to feel the painful sensation coming from my swollen lips.
There was a lady who witnessed everything.
I think i just left her an awful memory.

When i was in the MRT train, my head bent low.
Tears start cascading down my uneven cheeks.
I could only see shoes from all sorts of shoe shops.
I was sobbing very hard.
I could feel the rising anger coming out from my mom's body.
From her expression, everybody could have guessed what had happened.
But nobody would have guess that it would be that bad.
It was a ride to remember.

As the train arrived at Pasir Ris, i know it is time for the confrontment.
It was an empty station
My mom words are still ringing in my head.
It all comes down to anger management.
It's kind of funny.
I don't blame my mom.
Because i don't want to be like her.

2006-09-28T10:53:00.000+08:00

Haix,

It's been quite a tiring week. I have been watching DVD everynight. Oh man, I could feel the aching all over my body. Why am i so crazy over the korean drama series " gong"? It's like a fairy tale that will never happen in the real world.

I think the biggest and the heaviest load on my back would be him. Why am i doing so much things. I kept forcing myself not to think too much but yet it doesn't help. I tried my best not to Msg or even call him. why does it always fail? I don't want to give up neither do i want to give in. It's my biggest challenge to go into your heart because you hardly open it. I will not give up. Though sometimes your tone or voice or the words you use can be hurtful, I know that this are just the bits and pieces obstacles that are stopping from getting to it.

i know you will read this. But this is the only place that i can pour out my thoughts and sorrow.

2006-09-23T12:30:00.000+08:00

Ai yo.
Wow! Got a chaotic night yesterday. But i still managed to get some sleep after 2am

1st-->i have to finish my spiritual homework which i found it hard to complete
2nd--> Had a chat with Wayne
3rd--> Had a chat with Eunice regarding pacesetter interview
4th--> i have to finish my english comprehension which i still have not touched at all.

Haix. I thought it through already.

Am i really that lousy. Every single thing i have to depend on someone to help me handle. haix. Hong qing told me the same thing 6 months ago and now it is still happening. haix. i know that phrase "if you think you are lousy then you are lousy" and also " why should you let other people influence what you think". right?

2006-09-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

haix..

Days are flying past really quickly...
As i stare at the empty pages of my english comprehension book..
why don't i want to complete it then..
is it because i don't know how to do..
NO..
is it because i'm lazy to do..
No..
it is all because
i'm just so unwilling to see the pages completed.
I don't want this to happen..
But why am i letting it be then..
how i wish someone can just take away this unwillingness in me..
I doubt it will come..
i will still pull myself up still..
i just hoped that it would not take too long..
i'm still left with 1 month and 2 weeks...
someone please guide me..
pretty please..

2006-09-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

hey,

It's been quite some time since i last blog..
you may be thinking what have i done for the past few weeks..
actually nothing much..
work, work and more work..

WORK
What to say. It's tough. There are times where i was caught in the rain and i am totally drenched from head to toe. Luckily, i didn't fell sick. Most often, i get lost. Because there are some places that i have not heard before in my entire life. examples such as "battery road" & "Anson Road".ai yo. My boss is one weird creature. Don't like her. Don't know why Yu fen seem to like her. ai yo. Don't like my job. How i wish i can just change my job and go work in warehouse one. That would be fun.

Personal Life
What to say. Can't get the person out of my life. Nvm, don't talk about that. very lazy to type already. so many people talking to me. K la. there's lots of events that are coming up..

SUNDAY--->> TElematch against other poly.(pasir Ris park)

People who are reading this. PLease come. Esp those that are from TP. The more you have to support your own school right. The champion will walk away themselves with each a movie ticket and $150 Sakae Sushi. cool right. So people out there. must come and support your very own school at pasir ris park.. kk..

IF coming, please call charmane -->> 91033840
please come.. WE NEED YOUR SUPPORT!!!!

Enough of that already..

the Emotional side of me is quite unstable. I just threw my temper last sunday. I'm sorry guys. I hope you can forgive me.ha. thanks suzy for that talk. it helped a little. at least i still feel at least i am part of the family. that's should be all..

2006-09-10T23:24:00.000+08:00

haha..
found a job already..
thanks to fen..
oh man..
so very happy now..
but then for something else..
not very happy..
maybe i should not think think too much about it..
should just concentrate on my work and other things..
now, need to help yufen..
because joanne is busy..
haha.. enjoyed cell group and service..
but on both days.. got scolded by my parents..
because they wanted to bring me out to do shopping..
then i'm always late ..
and our plans are spoilt already..
haix.. my fault now..
it's like i'm nt wanted in this house..
no one trusts or even cares for me..
like today..
my parents called me 14 times and i didn't even know my hp was ringing..
haix.. was a terrible week with my parents..
oo..love shang man.. thanks for the " cancer patients" album.. ohman
sun's new song" one more moment" rocks..
she is so SWEET.. can't stand it..
i have a feeling that wayne and liz would ask from me.. haha
anyway.. about me and wayne..talking to joel last night..
told me lots of things that i wanted to know and i didn't know about..
so i feel that i should let god do the judging..
the only person that i trust the most..
wah.. there's going to be a bible quest..
cool.. we have to know lots of things in the bible like
"who's the wisest man in this world"
it's solomon.. haha.. cool right..
i bet you don't even know that..
we're going to have so many gathering this week.. wah seh
THURS-->TP gathering
FRI---->Subzone gathering
ai yo.. i'm going to lose my voice already..oh no.. that's bad
i need my tea and that medicine from that clinic near chuan zhu's house..
need it badly..

2006-09-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

haix yo,

so boring..
it's the holidays already..
nothing to do..
it's really difficult to find a job..
going out everyday will make me broke man..
can't already..

the past few days starting from friday has been quite slack.. eat, shop and sleep.. wah sianz..

on friday, was preparing joanne big surprise card for her.. i think it was the best card that i have ever made.. she should be honoured man.. but no fun, she seemed to know about it before recieving it.. haha..

on sunday, i finally learnt how to play the guitar.. mua haha.. i know how to play the first four chord.. g,c,d,e minor one..haha.. now i'm learning how to strum and switching one chord to another quickly.. quite tough.. need alot of practice..

on monday.. went to fen house to practice guitar and also to go and search for her bag.. i'm so cool la.. i can bargin a 36 dollars bag to 30 dollars.. more than 10% discount..haha.. cool right.. wah.. that day, chuan zhu and fen can shop for so long one... by 9 plus.. i cannot take it already.. talking rubbish already..

on tuesday, went to fen house again to practice guitar.. but today we went k box with wayne.. oh my.. the three of us went nuts in there.. our singing sometimes went out of tune.. so funny la.. should have recorded it down.. esp with wayne and fen sang the barbie girl song.. haha.. cartoon.. but in the end.. still can't get anything out from him.. we just know that the bugis girl is in church.. but i have a strong feelings that he really don't like anybody leh.. i pester him until i want to surrender..he still says no one else.. is it true or not.. i only know he used to like this girl but now.. is like no more..is like we only left with another1 to 2 more month together as a cell group.. then we are going to spilt already.. lord, is he the one still..i don't know.. i'm confused as him.. but i know i still can't get over him.. i'm trying hard nt to msg him or even call him..but sometimes, you just wish to hear something from him or even just catch a glimpse of him... haix.. this is call love sick just like orsino in twelth night...

on wednesday, to day went out with serinn(my cousin's gf) very pretty kk..but my cousin not say very handsome..haha.. oh man.. if he ever found out i said this about him, he's going to kill me.. anyway.. she actually intro me a job but i don't think i', going to go down tomorrow.. because.. i think it's going to be the same as my sales job last time..how do u promote a company to other people.. is either you ask them to buy your products or you give away brochures right.. so i think i rather not do this cheating people job.. so i'm going to go for a job interview at kushin bowl at suntec.. i hope i get the job and i want to start work soon... i need money and i can't stand the holidays.. esp starting from tmr.. fen is going to start work and wayne too.. oh man.. everybody is going to staqrt work.. no people to go out wiht me tomorrow.. haix... sianz...

2006-09-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

hmm.. now i need to be original is it..
people says that my blog is always the same pattern one..
what to say..
exam's finally over..
i lost quite a no. of hair already..
i also think i gain a kg already.. but now.. stress are all gone already..

this means
less pimples,
no black eyes
adequate amount of sleep.. mua haha..

guess what..
today me, lloyd, bud, mal and lee jin, we five went to eat lunch today.. can u believe that we stayed at tm from 1 to 5.. then the next 2 hours.. i went with yufen they all..
oh man.. very exhausted..
oh ya, my people also accompanied me to watson to buy facial mask..
first time trying out.. so people cannot laugh at me leh..
the product is call anti stress red ginsend essence facial mask..
bud intro one.. haha.. so it must be good..
anyway.. do u know he's the one who my urbanizer.. is it spell like that anyway..

i need to find a job now!!! really soon!!! need money!! so someone intro one to me can..i only can work from mon to fri.. so please .. one kind sould just intro one to me.. signing off now.. need to do joanne present already

2006-08-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

ah people..

once again the sickness is back again.. why does it always occur at night.. during the night, i would feel very alone.. don't like it...

need to study already..

lord, help me please...

2006-08-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

hey people,

oh no.. now it is study week.. in another 2 more days time.. i'm going to have my first exam.. that would be my bio chem.. scary but yet happy that it is going to be over soon.. to tell u honestly, i'm not prepared for the exams.. i really got quite alot to study.. and every subject has it's own challenge.. i know i can do it..

anyway, the main reason i'm blogging now, is because of wayne.. i really could not take it anymore..

what's this..
1) because of him, i don't have mood to do anything
2) because of him, i don't feel like studying.
3)because of him, i keep looking at my hp
4)because of him, my heart is really confused

i kept on thinking about him.. but i can blame no one else but myself.. why did i want this to heppen in my life.. even now, orhbakak had already found someone else..anyway.. back to the topic.. i don't want this to carry on.. i know it is useless. but i can't seem to let go.. i can't tell any of this to my cg members. it's useless. they will feel that it is just puppy love.. when i told joanne about this.. she said that i should have let go long time ago because she says that it would never happen between us... haix.. it is true or is it just a saying.. it's not up to me to decide.. i just wish he would give me a answer.. is either a yes or a no.. even though it is a no, at least i would have given up my hope.. but deep down in me.. i really don't want to hear the word no from you.. because i know it would never be the same between us.. i may even avoid you because of this.. haix.. have to get back to my books people..

2006-08-18T21:35:00.000+08:00

hey people,

i think this week my life kind of sucks..
it's not the way i want it to be..
but what can i do..
sit there and do nothing..
keep repeating it over and over
that i'm dumb and useless..
NO.. that's not how i want it to be..
I want to shine for the lord..

this is what happened..

1) Terrible results for all my quizes and pop quizes

i have been scoring really badly for all my quiz..all i see are just pass and fail.. oh man.. i got sick and tired of it already.. don't even feel like taking any exams and tests.. but i know that will never happen.. anyway.. i studies so hard and this is all i get.. even my teacher commented that some of the weaker students even did badly than me.. can u believe this.. even the teacher is disappointed with my results.. i do not know what to do.. what is this.. but it's ok.. charmane is going to prove them wrong.. cause charmane is going to rise up .. and charmane will not give up fighting till the end.. cause i made a pact with horse.. we're going to make the last lap a good one.. yeah man.. and a true champion is one who never quits despite all the setbacks.. semestral exam.. here i come.. mua haha.. oh no.. but i have not finished studying yet..haha.. but i'm going to do so now..

2) HORSE
should i give up hope.. it's like it will never ever happen between us..horse actually likes another girl.. but is not scalett.. but is someone else.. anyway.. i heard she is pretty.. and then when i told lloyd and eric about this.. they were like saying.. charmane.. give up hope ba.. wah seh.. feel like boxing that two of them.. am i really that bad.. can't stand the.. anyway, haix.. but i really like his companion.. he's used to make fun of me but now it stopped.. it's not like the past anymore.. i wished i haven't said anything to him.. haix..nvm.. i just hav to let everybody know that i'm giving up on him but deep down inside me,, i really don't want to let it go..

father, i pray for strength to carry on..

that's all people.. don't feel like typing anymore.. i got more stories to say.. but lazy to type.. need to bathe already..haha.. study hard and good luck to your exams kk.,.. jia you

2006-08-12T09:03:00.000+08:00

am i under depression or what..

first of all, is my studies.. i'm always feeling very insecure about it..last year, i spent all my time studying and what do i get.. i don't want the same thing happen to me this year..i lost all my energy to fight..

second of all, is my friends..i don't feel welcomed or even part of the group at all..lloyd, it's not our group..i can be so quiet around them because i don't know them well.. they will talk about other stuffs and i can't seem to relate to.. they have made close friends between them.. suddenly one intruder comes and spoil everything.. even now, i feel that shawn knows more about them than me.is it me or my gut feelings.. yen ping says that it's normal to have this sort of feelings.. is it.. confused.. i think it's only me la..blending into the wall paper would be a great idea whenever i'm with them...

confused and tired.. lost all my strength and moltivation to carry on with any thing...

2006-08-08T20:33:00.000+08:00

ah people..

what's wrong with me.. suddenly i feel that i lost my moltivation to study.. i don't know.. my heart is spinning round and round.. my goals are like so hard to reach now.. then i don't feel like carry on.. what's wrong.. help me... i can't take this any more.. i can't put this into words...

2006-08-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

hey people,

kind of upset now.. should i feel jealous or what.. horse like someone else.. don't know whether it is her anot.. he haven't said yes .. her name is scarlett.. though i didn't hear such name before.. haix.. i think she is in church la.. should be one..haix.. what to do.. the lord wants me to know this.. so i can give up hope isn't it... haha.. ok la.. back to books now.. the only companion i have now is with my books.. haha.. need to study for maths test tomorrow.. haha....jia you ba..

2006-07-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

hey,,

let me update you on today..

it marks the beginning of a brand new me..

okok.. today at chc.. oh man.. the praise and worship rocks.. ruben and his band from hillsongs rocks the whole hall..anyway.. i was a little bit afraid of today as there is going to be a special deliverance ceremony..
anyway we don't talk about that..

after service as usual,we went to eat..without fail, that stupid horse and wee meng will make fun of me.. moo here and there. sometimes i wander who's the cow.. is it me or them...haha.. anyway.. oh man.. today horse dress like uncle today.. haha.. he wore formally because he got to serve.. anyway.. he's serving in the choir ministry.. and they have to dress really nicely and put on very very thick make up..hahah.. anyway.. that uncle kept making fun of me.. then he kept suaning me.. ai yo.. the journey from expo to 85 market we were crapping.. eh.. we played" who can shed a tear first".. all these lame stuff..anyway.. lizard bit e two times.. on my both hands.. oh man.. there's a scar now..haha.. is ok liz.. not blaming you..

you know what did that horse says.. he will never like a cow la.. then i shouted back.. i will never like a horse..nvm.. anyway... the only things we done today was to eat and play.. nothing else..

something good really happen at the mac..

haha.. i just brought my ice cream.. and my mom called me to go and wait for them at the mrt station there.. they are going to fetch me to my grandma house.. then when i told them i wanted to leave.. suddenly horse said, ok, i'll accompany you there. i was shocked.. wah.. it's like he will never do that one la.. ok.. anyway.. we both were licking our ice cream and walking there.. we chatted of cos.. oh mine.. can u believe this,, horse is in student council.. hard to believe leh..i think the teachers are all blind..haha.. anyway.. he was like saying of thinking to tp to study.. not saying that he don't like nyp.. but tp is his favourite school so ya loh.. i told him i will help him check it out though i really want him to be in tp.. haix.. decision is still his.. don't force.. 1 more thing.. oh mine.. HORSE LIKE ORANGE TOO!!!!!i found out from his friendster.. so concidental.. haha..

lord, if he's the one, let me know.. if he's not, let me forget about it.. lord.. i put this matter in your hands.. i trust in you lord.. amen..

2006-07-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

hey people...

oh no.. i think i got a new target already.. oh no.. this is diferent from the last one..the feelings for this one is really so different.. oh man..even god is telling me that this is the one.. oh man.. my heart would beat so fast whenever i'm with him.. though i am really short beside him.. haix.. ai yo.. but i doubt that horse will ever like me.. he even proclaim that he will never like this cow loh.. ai yo.. should i forget it or should i carry on waiting..

2006-07-25T11:45:00.000+08:00

hey people,

oh man.. stress stress.. 1 more month to major EXAMs.. haix.. oh man.. so stress.. ai yoo.. haha.. guess what.. i'm now a member of CHC.. woo hoo.. going to be in the usher ministry.. haha.. oh no..i need the strength and the determination to score A's in all my subject.. jia you.. nothing is impossible esp with him around.. gan ba de.. jia you.. Charmane, you can do it.. hAhaha..

2006-07-18T19:16:00.000+08:00

hey,

ai yo..
the past two days, i got continuous mood swing..
On sunday,
1) i cried because i lost my keychain cow's head..

on Monday,
it was the worst..
1) i scolded yu xuan they all
2) i scolded joanne for telling the malay girls about the movie event..
3)then i show my attitude towards my people around me
4)then i cried

i thought that my friends do not care about me any more.. really.. suddenly i felt alone in this school.. i really do not want to study in tp any more.. until joanne called me last night.. thanks so much.. i really think that i'm stressing myself too much..i should set relistic goals right.. i know now.. i really hope it's not too late.. is there still time to study.. i hope so... the holy spirit is in me.. i can do anything.. jia you.. charmane.. gan ba de... haha.. back to study.. a special big thank you to yu fen and joanne.. thanks for bringing me to the house of the lord..praise the lord..

2006-07-15T00:28:00.001+08:00

Hey people,

ha.. how's life.. kind of suck actually.. i need to spend time studying.. tests Are like in 1 week time.. and i have not started yet... oh no.. but i can't panic.. need to calm down....

hah..don't worry.. i have faith that i will complete.. MY OC and BC and MS and CSAS..i will.. there's SATURday.. devoted to my studying for the whole day.. can't wait.,. i will get the facts into my head..

okok... woo hoo..My cousin is teaching me how to play the guitar.. woo hoo.. can't wait.. the only thing is to find me a guitar to use..

so late already.. stupid wayne.. i'll make sure i'll box him..haha.. hope you got enough money to pay for cab.. haha.. as if he will read this like that..haha

2006-07-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

2006-07-11T00:43:00.000+08:00

hey people,

not feeling too good now.. ha..oh man.. i'm feeling very down.. how.. i really can't study.. i don't know why.. for the past few days, i really think my attitude towards learning change alot.. just can't seem t study.. started my memorising my endocrine system.. i can't get it into my head.. though i have a better understanding towards that chapter.. but still not good enough.. am i really giving too much stress on myself.. how.. sometimes is a burden to study.. i really feel that i have been playing too much..besides attending church services and so on.. those are not disturbing my lifestyle at all.. then what is.. is it spending to much time on the phone... too much time on the internet.. haix.. i want my old self back now.. i want to play hard and study hard.. i really can't tell anybody..to everyone, i'm just giving them too much stress.. bud says that he doesn't want to get close to me because i will stress him up.. then with joanne.. also the same thing.. who can i really tell all these to.. my mom just want me to do my best.. that's all.. why am i giving the stress to myself..tell me why.. haix.. really can't take it.. anyone with ideas.. haix.. nvm

another matter, stupid joseph.. why attack me.. u are REALLY SCARY.. don't u know that.. the way u smile creeps me.. yucks.. oh man.. u should have seen his face during the HAP game.. oh man.. scary.. please lord.. do something to change him..is really scary..

I WANT MY OLD SELF BACK!! I SHOULD STOP THINKING OF GETTING GOOD GRADES BUT JUST DO MY BEST!!RIGHT!! do u know what did mrs kalpana told me,, she told me that i did badly for my HAp quiz...haix. i failed anyway..anyway,wo bu hui fang qi de.. there's a saying for MVP qing ren.. bu yao qing yan fang qi,fuo zhe tui bu qi zhi ji.. myhanyin pin yin is bad.. forgive me..haha..

2006-07-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE,

GUESS WHAT!! I THINK I'M DEAD!!

GOT LOTS TO STUDY
1)HAP(ENDOCRINE SYSTEM)
2)PIPC
3)OC
4)MATH
5)HAP (CIRCULATORY SYSTEM)

lord, i pray that u will give me strength to carry on running and revise my work.. that i will not be distracted and be more focus..

I CAN DO IT!! I CAN COMPLETE EVERYTHING!!

2006-07-03T09:42:00.000+08:00

hello,

haha!! Last saturday, i mark the new beginning with me and someone.. and that person is GOD!! haha.. so happy.. attended my first cell group meeting.. oh man.. i just enjoyed hanging out with them.. then when i shared my testimonal.. haha.. do you know what did they do.. they put their hands on me and said that the whole cell group is proud of you..oh man.. it really gives me the encouragement and the strive for excellence.. haha.. i would not let them down.. i will continue to do my very best!! to JOANNE, thanks for introducing GOD to me.. i'm really glad that i met you and no words could express my gratitude to you.. the only thing i can do is to coach you in your work and of course give you a make over.. haha.. i got the cell group members support too haha..I CAN DO IT!! AND I BELIEVE YOU CAN TOO.. trust yourself a little bit more and you will realise that MIRACLES do happen esp with HIM around...haha

2006-06-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE,

NEW BLOG NEW CHARMANE!! mua haha.. hi people, it's been quite some time since i blog.. all thanks to my itchy fingers, who went to click here and there.. and click until i'm not able to view my entries..so.. ya.. hope u guys like my blog.. spent quite some time doind it..haha.. anyway.. how's my life right??

eh..
there are several good news and bad news..

GOOD NEWS
1) I GOT THROUGH MY INTERVIEW WITH THE PACE SETTER..PRAISE THE LORD!!
this means that i'm in pace setter..haha.. i'm going for a workshop soon.. the workshop is to train us to be pacesetter.. they would give us information regarding the whole TP and we will again be reselected again.. if we are really one.. because there is lots of role playing and games to do one.. i'll just have to pray really hard..hope that lord will get me a place in pace setter.. i have faith in him..

2) I GOT 3 A's and 1 B+ AND 2B FOR MY TERM TESTS.. THANK U LORD!!
HAHA!! i fare kind of ok.. not bad.. some of the test marks are really unexpected.. i done my best..but this is not my peak.. my peak is my SEMESTRAL EXAM!!.. I'M GOING TO CARRY ON WORKING HARD!! PAYING MORE ATTENTION TO THE LECTURES!! COMPLETING ALL MY TUTORIALS AND WORK ON TIME!! PRAY TO GOD THAT HE WILL GUIDE ME AND GIVE ME STRENGTH TO CARRY ON!! JIA YOU BA CHARMANE.. NI YI DING NENG ZUO DAO DE!!!

3)GOD HAS MADE A WAY FOR ME!! I'M ABLE TO GO TO CHURCH ALREADY!! PRAISE THE MIGHTY LORD!!
TODAY AT 11.00PM, me and my mom had come to an agreement.. i have to go to shui chang every once a month while she allow me to go to church provided i'm not baptised..so hoo ray!! can't wait to share the piece of good news to suzy and yu fen and the rest.. god has answered my prayers.. praise the lord.. thank u lord for creating a passage way where i'm able to see the beautiful rainbow now..

regarding the bad news, it's better not to say.. haha..carson, u know what i want to say right.. haha.. let the matter pass k.. i'll promise to change kk!! by the way, i do have a pants inside or else i would not have sat that way anyway..

PS: i have to dye my hair chocolate brown now.. thanks to pace setter.. but it's a good thing anyway.. WATCH OUT FOR MY NEW HAIR COLOUR...haha

PS: I miss u orhbakak..

2006-06-25T21:32:00.000+08:00

hey,

i'm quite upset that i did not have the chance to go to church today..boo hoo.. nvm.. at least there's online video sermons..hahaah.. NEXT WEEK IT'S A MUST TO GO!!!

SCHOOL IS STARTING IN A FEW HOURS TIME.. can't wait.. haha.. i'm game up and ready for the workload that is going to come though i feel that the holidays is just too little..haha.. nvm.. i'll be looking forward for my next holiday..haha..

TERM TEST PAPERS ARE COMING BACK TOO!!.. I JUST PRAY FOR THE BEST.. THE LORD KNOWS THAT CHARMANE HAD TRIED HER BEST.. WHATEVER THE RESULTS , SHE WILL GLADLY ACCEPT IT.. AND CHARMANE WILL DEFINATELY TRY HARDER AND PUT IN MORE EFFORT NEXT TIME..HAHA..

SAW ORH BA KAK IN CHURCH TODAY.. AS USUAL, i dare not let himsee me nor even go and say hi to him.. what is happening to me.. he's just my friend.. why am i like that... okok.. treat himas normal friend...i saw xiao qian today.. haha.. quite pretty and very sweet girl.. haha.. no wander wee ming and orh ba kak like her.. haha.. not bad la.. haahah.. hmm.. i think i can go and hide in the toilet already..haha..

2006-06-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

hey,

ai yo.. tomorrow is chc Friendship connection..haha.. tomorrow is alos the day where my brother becomes a buddhist.. i have to attend the ceremony to support him.. it starts at 9.30.. haix.. my service starts at 10.. i have to rush down quick by cab.. i just hope i can reach there before their praise and worship.. i don't want to sit somewhere else..haha..can't wait for service..haha.. today i have been msging carson the whole day.. haha.. cartoon guy leh.. anyway.. went to k box with joanne and her friends.. A BIG THANK YOOU TO SU SZE FOR PAYING FOR MY ENTRANCE FEES.. haha.. enjoy singing there..haha.. wayne keep laughing at me.. oh man.. that;s it.. tomorrow he's going to get it from me tomorrow.. haha..lord, please guide me and help me to cross this obstacle course.. i have confidence that i can do it.. jia you charmane.. never give up k..

2006-06-24T13:20:00.000+08:00

hey,

WORK AT S'PORE EXPO
SCS OFFICE

haha.. oh man..my 3 days of torture and laughter are finally over.. i have been working at singapore expo for the past 4 days.. everyday i wake up at 6 and reach expo at 7 and i'll come home about 8-9pm ..oh man.. can u imagine, standing up for more than 8 hours in heels.. u can die man.. anyway, it's very fun.. i can get free soft drinks.. free buffet.. people pay 28 bucks to go in while paper pay me to eat the buffet..haha.. everyday, i don't even spend a single cent..wah.. i was actually helping out at the motorola booth for the first and 2nd day.. i actually the bar tender for that 2 days..then i went to another hp booth then on the last day, i was a runner with 7 other crappy guys.. there's carlson,my ic head, cartoon person, tp, year 1, info com.. there's xavier, cartoon person,tp, year 2,info com.. there 's also lao ang, lao wang,leanerd,ah xin and shawn.. wah seh.. can u imagine.. a simple ti tac toe game can change into a soccer match with italy vs brazil and also vs england.. cartoon.. guess who won..italy won..haha...anyway, carlson was very nice la.. haha.. i do nothing, i don't carry heavy stuffs..i just look after the lists and give instructions to the guys.. and they will do the workk.. i'm actually very nice, i went to help them too k..ai yo.. kind of miss their crappping now.. haha..not bad.. i have made quite a no. of friends here..hope to work with them again when there's a chance.. ANOTHER BIG THANK YOU TO IVAN ONCE AGAIN..

2006-06-21T22:09:00.000+08:00

AI YO,

2 DAYS OF WORK AND MY FEET IS KILLING ME..

THERE'S STILL 2 MORE DAYS

2006-06-20T04:45:00.000+08:00

hey,

ha.. the past few days haven't been blogging.yup..so what have i been doing.. first..

INTERVIEW
it was kind of scary as it was my first interview.ha.. we were given a test to do. it's about the poly itself. we were asked to name our own school director's name, the no. of lt we have, how many auditorium do we have, when was tp established,what colour is our school logo and etc.) oh man, i think i will fail the test.haha..oh no. i think i need to dye back to black colour already. because in pace setters we are not allowed to have dyed hair. oh man. if i'm shortlisted, i better buy the self dye one. cannot afford to spent so much money in the salon again.anyway, there was 3 interviewers. one of them, i heard from the seniors that she is very picky about the way you look. my hair is dyed and my suit looks big on me and also i didn't wore my black heels that day. i just have to leave this matter to the hands of the lord. it's up to them and him now.

FATHER'S DAY CELEBRATION
AT CITY HARVEST
ha.. it's my 2nd time in church now.. i went for the saturday service. haha. as usual very crowded. haha.. the drama was very funny, it's a father and son amazing race then they travel around the world and play games. they went to japan to act as geisha, went to hong kong to eat smelly bean curd, went to philipines to ride bicycle up the slope.haha.. guess what..i actually took a step out to god that day. i was really afraid as like richie said i was kind of embarrased to go all the way to the front.haha. but i pluck out my courage and went down with joanne. haha.now, i felt much more accepted in the house of god, i do not feel that i'm a outsider any more.now, joanne cell group are like a family to me. without their encouragement and support, i will be still be left in the dark.thanks so much..haha..

E308 SENTOSA OUTING
i also made lots of cool friends that day. there was wayne, richie,jasmine,liz,sherry, yu fen, wee ming, su sze,daphne, daphne's brother gary, wei qiang, hao ran, wei ping, ivan(biotec),cedrick and many more la can't remember the rest already..haha.. anyway, we played lots of games. captain ball, volleyball,frisbes, and lots of drinking and eating. feel so fat now.. die.. i really enjoyed the outing haha.. i hope there's more to come.. jasmine said she wanted to go to escape theme park because she has not been there before..haha.. oh mine, let me tell u something too, i can't believe i'm younger than liz, she is borned on the 18/11/1989 and i'm borned on the 15/12/1989. oh man.. now, i must call her da jie la.haha..

JOB AT EXPO
thanks to ivan, i found a job for the last 4 days of my term break. it's something to do some food catering. i just hoped we are able to work and i need my pay really badly.. i'm really bored for the week.. oh no.. someone help me..

BEENOX BBQ
OH NO!! kris left everything to me now.i'm like one man running the show.. now, my major problem is money.oh man.. people i really need your help.. please find more people to go to the beenox bbq.. i really need the money and the resources.. haix..

that's should be all.. haha... people please tag my blog.. school is starting in 1 week time.

2006-06-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

hey,

haix.. i hope i got used to my new hair colour and the comments i recieved from my friends.. haix.. today, i went out with z, yenping, eunice to watch cars.. quite a cool show.. go watch.. i think the insects are really cute.. haha..anyway.. the three of them had the same response regarding my hair.. which is your colouer is too bright.. and your hair colour doesn't suit you.. out of three.. z gave me 1.. haix.. i failed..haix.. everywhere i go.. as long there's a mirror, i would go and look at it.. look at my hair.. haix.. it's like a normal reflex action like that..anyway.. today went to new urban male to shop.. i did something really stupid.. at the counter, ther was this megazine.. i thought we have to pay for it then when z said that he wanted to take one... i said you have to pay 3.50 for it.. then the guy at the counter said that it was free. then i said " really arh".. then everybody started laughing la.. so embarrasing.. later part of the day.. i went to wan hua co concert today..haha.. it's been quite long since i walked to SCH.. it didn't changed after so long.. haha..haix.. my seniors from NYJC couldn't recognised me.. haha...good luck to them and everybody in NYJC.. their exams are next friday.. jia you kk.. but don't overly stressed yourself kk...haha..

okok.. tomorrow i'm going to join joanne cell group at sentosa... haix.. quite scared for sat pace setter interview.. good luck to me.I WILL DO IT>.. JIA YOU!!!

2006-06-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

hey,

haha.. i'm feeling much better now after yesterday.. went out with yen ping and z today..haix.. everybody got the same comment for me.. the colour is too bright and your hair is too short.. haix.. i look like an ah lian.. then still got what.. i think no more le ba.. haix.. quite depressed over it.. haix.. i don't know what to say.. haix.. don't wish to talk about it.. went to wan hua's co concert today.. at the concert, there was two soloist and they are so man and so cute.. one of them, is teng hui senior.. i asked him to help me to get his signiture.. i think he is really cute.. haha..ya.. tomorrow going to sentosa with joanne..haha.. hope i can get over it..then on sat, is my pace setter interview.,. wish me luck people.. i think i need lots of it.. haha.. jia you charmane.. I CAN DO IT.. GAN BA DE.. jia you jia you..haha.. ( quite upset over the hairdo still) people, don't be surprised when u see me kk.. just give your honest comments to me.. i can take it..

2006-06-14T23:00:00.001+08:00

hey,

haha.. i just changed my hair look.. i think i looked very different.. nt like the past.. i dyed my hair brown.. then i highlighted in blonde.. because it must be striking or else... u highlight for what.. anyway.. when i first look at myself.. i liked my new hairstyle..i think it's really blonde.. haha.. abit like pan jia li hairstyle.. except that hers is much nicer la..haha.. my brother says i look nice.. even my mom commented that it looks alright..

but when i go online, the world turned the other way round.. the people started saying that my hairstyle doesn't suit me.. it doesn't look nice on me.. ya.. and etc.. i can't believe i told z that i can't wait for him to see my new hairstyle..i told him, he can no longer see my side parting anymore.. it's not obvious.. my hair doesn't look so flat now.. it looks thicker..then i say i loved the colur.. it's really a very otustanding colour.. it's like a colour that none of my friends will ever thought that i would use that colour..but then.. it's obvious that the crowd doesn't like it.. so now.. i doubt orh ba kak, would ever like it...haix.. sad now..

2006-06-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

2006-06-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

hey,

haha..today i went ice skating with my class AG11 today..haha..oh man.. i fell down 10 times..my butt hurts and my hand hurts and my legs aches..haha..but it's fun.. the funniest part is that we saw viyond with his girlfriend..wah seh.. such a flirt la.. while skating, stupid lloyd and eric skate so fast until i can't catch up.. li ping is still the best la.i love you li ping..haha.. oh man.. joseph no.2 must be very jealous of me.. haha.. oh man.. i went to visit my auntie who was hospitalised.. so poor thing.. there's stones in her gall bladder and have to remove the whole organ.. i took picture of one of her stone.. oh mine.. it's the same size as any stone you found on the ground..oh man.. scary... haha..lord, please give her strength to withstand the pain and bless her with your goodness..i really hope she will be better soon..ma ma birthday is just 2 weeks later.. i want everyone to enjoy on that day..

haix.. tomorrow appointment with the hair dresser is cancelled again.. because yen ping have dance practice from 1 to 6.. ai yo.. it's like everyday..hmm.. she told me that it's going to be the same for the next week.. poor thing.. but yen ping must jia you kk.. i really want to see you perform.. and don't worry, i'll call all the beenox people to support you.. i promise kk..

tomorrow.. i'll be so bored..ai yo.. all the outing is cancelled..how.. anybody wants to date me tomorrow.. haha.. i hope is orh ba kak.. haha.. i doubt so..haha.. anyway..haha.. regarding the friday outing.. i 'm going with joanne cell group and also with my class.. ai yo.. how..

2006-06-12T21:52:00.000+08:00

hello,

i'm not feeling too good now. My mom just shouted at me. i really do not know the reason why.everything i do is wrong. i did not put back the cups after i drink them, i just place them on the table.my mom walked passed and saw it, and she said, i told you how many times to put back the cups, she started all the nonsense again. she scolded me for using the com for too long and that her laptop is too hot.. she specify that is HER laptop. what's this, she gave it to me to use it for school and now she is taking it back. she scolded me for being too dumb and so stupid because i've used the u zap for so long and that i did not read the instructions on how to use. when i asked her why is she in a bad mood, and going round to scold me and my brother, she just said" you're a pain in my ass". can you believe it!! she just said that infront of me.. what am i suppose to do.. i controlled all my anger. i hadtried very hard not to talk back.. but i can't take it.. sometimes, i just wished that i really want to have my own freedom to do anything i want.. i'm going to 17 and in another 4 years times, i'm going to be 21 years old.. stop treating me like a young kid.. i want to have my own freedom to do anything i want..the freedom to choose my own religion.. i really want to go to church every sunday.. why are u always making me and my brother to go hai ying with you for shuai chang.. me and marcus do not feel comfortable there..we do not even pay attention to the chanting.. why can't you think.. why are we always playing and commenting and insisting to do only half day.. all of this is because we do not want yout o be angry or to be disappointed in us.. both of us love you alot.. but mom, sometimes i just wished you could care a bit lesser..

2006-06-11T16:50:00.000+08:00

HEY,

oh man.. I WAS AT CHC ..oh mine.. my first service.. IT's ROCKS.. i enjoyed it a lot...oh mine.. i learnt a lot of things there..i can't wait for the next service next sunday.. must think of something else to bluff my mom.. can someone kind of help me to think of ideas.. guess what.. i saw orh ba kak in church today..haha..he really chnged a lot..his hairstyle is different now..haha..oh mine.. me and jo says that he changed from one ah beng to another ah beng..haha.. so funny la.. i just hoped he didn't see me today..haha..

oh man.. tomorrow is GYM TIME..haha..yeah.. i'm going to lose weight tomorrow and do my hair..haha.. i can't wait till tomorrow...haha.. everybody watch out for my new hairstyle..haha

2006-06-09T22:31:00.000+08:00

hey everybody,

THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!

haha!! after studying for two whole weeks, it's time to RELAX. haha.. though these two weeks isn't very a long, but it's still something.. the term tests seems alright to me.. but i have no confidence in it.. ai yo.. why talk about all this.. it's time to PARTY!!haha.. the next whole week.. i'm packed.. on monday, i'm going to the gym with jo..on tues, going for AG 11 outing.. on wed, going to meet sam.. on thurs, going to wan hua's co concert.. on fri, going out with jo.. sat..THERE'S THE PACESETTER'S INTERVIEW(must wish me luck leh).. on sunday, going to church and CCHMS CO CONCERT..oh no.. must also meet up the bimbos to go shopping..haha.. oh man.. so many activities waiting for me.. haha..

i'm quite scared and excited at the same time.. this sunday, i'm going to CHC!! i know i will enjoy myself there. thanks jo for bringing me there!!

BUD, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY.. though it's on a sunday.. but i want to be the 2nd person to wish u a happy birthday.. don't eat the goodies too fast kk!! save some for me!!

To: Z & Eunice,
jia you for tomorrow's pacesetter's interview.. don't worry.. the three of us will pull through ..we will beat the rest.. we will and YES WE WILL!!

TO NY CT 0623:
jia you for common test kk!! must do your best.. cannot fail leh.. or else i'll box you all leh..

2006-06-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

hey,

regarding my last entry,everybody seemed so angry with me..ESP bud,so fierce la. anyway people, i'm much better now.. thanks to raymond,my nyjc senior..thanks so much man.. really needed your help so badly that day.. another BIG THANK YOU..k..haha.. Thanks ivan too..

yesterday, i was at CHC talentime..haha..the contestants were REALLY good..haha.. all their performance will rock the whole expo hall..guess what.. i saw orhbakak on the screen where they were introducing the dancing group..if i'm not wrong, the group was motion effect something ..haha..couldn't quite remember..but quite disappointing.. he wasn't there...when i was in church, he was on his way to church..ai ya..no fate la..

haha.. hmm..tomorrow is term test already..i will jia you one.. i don't want stress to take over my life.. i will overcome it.. I CAN DO IT!! I WILL DO IT!! jia you jia you!! orhbakak, must jia you too hor.. k.. i doubt he will know about it.. haha.. i need to do my learning journals already.. update u soon about my life kk!! haha.. JIA YOU EVERYBODY!!! GAN BA DE!!

2006-06-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

oh man,

i think this is the worst day of my life..never felt so down, so confused in my life.really feel like going to a place where no one knows me at all..i just want to be alone..don't wish to talk to anybody at all..what caused it this way..i really don't know..maybe someone could let me know..

this is where it all started..

in the morning, i was very worried for my term tests..been studying the whole week..but it seems like nothing is going in to my head..i really don't know why i'm so worried..everybody have been telling me to relax..very tired of that sentence already..help me..i want to study smart but why am i'm not doing it..why..everybody keep telling me that my study method is wrong.. can u tell me what's wrong..i can't help it..i have to spend long hours studying one topic right..so that i can memorise and at the same time understanding it..that's me..now, there's so many things on..i hardly have the time and energy to study in the night..

i went to city harvest church emerge conference yesterday..i really enjoyed myself..at first, my main motive was to support orhbakak..i had never missed any of his performance.but when i go there...i said a little prayer..i told god to guide my way to do the right things..(e.g choosing which religion should i go)..my mom didn't like me going to a church..she doesn't like it and she thinks that it's not suitable for me..two years ago..i was quite interested in becoming a christian but my mom didn't like it..so i stopped going to church.. but when i went to church yesterday..i really felt like i came home..i really don't know..still cleless..need time to thought this through seriously..

today, heard from joanne that orhbakak was with that girl again.ther were at the expo bus stop waiting for the bus.. but it was in a big group.. was kind of hurt and sad when i heard this..though i know that he will never like me ,i'm still feeling this way.. why..was really down since then.. went with the whole group for lunch..got no appetite..really..didn't feel like eating. the more i don't want to think about him, the more i will start thinking about it..please help me to forget him..he has already found someone else..i really don't want to wait there forever..

i gt back my results for my quiz..i did quite ok.. gt 18.5/20 for biochem, gt 17/20 for PIPC,gt 17.5/20 for HAP , 24/25 for MS..i failed my OC..i gt 9/20 for that..quite upset over it..i have to get over it..a nd should use that to motivate myself even more..to carry on and do well for my term test..the stress is there because i really don't wish to let myself down..i really hope to have improvement..because i know the feeling of being pushed down to the groud..it really hurts..

having a cold war with my mom..haix.. don't want to talk already... need to get back to my bookss..

2006-05-31T19:05:00.000+08:00

hey,

oh man..in anther few more hours,i'll be going to watch orh ba kak perform..haha..can't wait..oh man..term test coming up and i'm dead..how..haven't study yet...haix..how..i'm stressing myself up..really can't take it..haix..there's like so mnay chapters to study..biochem, HAP, PIPC,MS,OC..haix.. can someone teach me how to memorise all the chapters in just 1 week..haix..enough of that nagging already...

i got back two of my quizes..i did fairly alright..but the worst paper has yet to arrive..i just pray very hard that i would pass my OC quiz..TERM TEST>>I WILL MAKE IT..I WILL DO WELL FOR ALL MY TESTS>>>GAN BA DE..everybody jia you ba.. esp joanne..don't stress yourself up over the diff question.. and lloyd, JIA YOU kk..haha.. people..i know u all read my blog one..MUST TAG leh..

2006-05-30T00:46:00.000+08:00

bad day..

hmm, today isn't a very good day from me.perhaps it's the monday blues.ha. anyway.i was kind of late for school.i was at the intechange at 8.15 and the bus is not her yet. then when i looked at my watch again.half an hour had passed and the bus isn't here yet.oh man.the queue was really really long..then lloyd decided to take the cap or else warning letter..haix. that's only the beginning of the day.

next,went to mensa and eat today.bud was very quiet.my sixth sense tells me that something is really not right with him.he's too quiet..its really not him..trying to get him to talk but it failed.haix. deep down in my heart, i know the reason for him being too quiet, his good frined ben isn't there. he feels weird with the rest o us.haix.sad.

next, HAP tutoria, it was kind of horrible.there was a pop quiz on nervous system. i read the answer somewhere but i couldn't recalled that key word.haix..i just prayed hard i would passed. can someone tell me how to score for HAP. i don't know what to do. is it just plain memorizing.haix..term tests is coming..i don't even think i have time to finish studying everything.HELP ME!!

here comes the worst part, it was OC lab, don't wish to talk about it.haix.it was really horrible.trust me.. it's ok..it's alright..tp tp tp fight fight fight..haix..it's better to forgive and forget..right..haix..back to books.. tataZ..i really hope that it will be a better day tomorrow. GAN BA DE!! jia you charmane!! can do it one!! don't give up kk!!! jia you!!haha!!

2006-05-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

hey,

i'm finally back home. i was out with my family to do supermarketing.oh no, my mom said that i looked fatter.this isn't a good thing.oh no, i have to start my dieting again. now, i must trained myself to make it a habit of going to the school gym once a week.haha.hope someone could help me.anyway,i woke up early today just to attend OC make up lecture and to have my OC quiz. today's quiz was horrible.i made so many mistakes.i lost a total of 8 marks. oh no, there goes my A grade.it's ok, it's alright, TP tP TP fight fight fight.haha. ivan and orh ba kak favourite phrase.

hmm, i have not msg orh ba kak a single msg till now. i'm very tempted to but i'm very determined that i will not msg him any more.I CAN DO IT..orh ba kak is in malaysia now for his adventure camp. i hope he is alright. i hope he brought his sweater. that time during the week 0 orientation, he didn't bring his sweater and he caught a flu. i hope he know how to take care of himself. always falling sick.haha.hmm, don't talk about him any more..

oh man, TERM TEST IS IN ONE WEEK TIME.. i have to start mugging hard for it. i must not let the same mistake to repeat itself.i have to collate the past years term test papers from the library. anybody care to help me..haha..ok.. that's all for now, EVERYBODY HAVE TO JIA YOU KK!!=P

2006-05-26T19:35:00.000+08:00

hey,

it seemed like a thousand weeks had passed since i last blogged..i had been busy with all my school stuffs such as CCN day, PIPC test and the upcoming OC test and last but least.. THE TERM TESTS!! haix.. CCN day preparation was a killer.. it had eaten up most of my days.. been shopping in the shopping market.. day inday out.. i'm really exhausted and burned out.and in order to complete all the tutorials, i had to sleep at 2 everynight..haix..now, adding to it, i'm falling sick soon..my man's voice is back again..haix..NO MORE HONEY WATER ANYMORE!! yesterday, i was so pale,my head was spinning round and round..couldn't seem to think or even study for PIPC TEST.. but luckily, the PIPC test i had today, was kind of alright..not very tough and tricky.. but i'm sure..the term test would be 3 times harder than this..there's one more quiz to go.. that would be the OC quiz which is held at 9 tomorrow..then i would have 2hrs of lecture..haix.. sianz..

guess what.. i saw orh ba kak today but he was with someone else..another girl.kind of short..because she is shorter than me.. cuter than me.. of cos..haha..they were kind of close.. when he saw me, he didn't even said hi to me or even approach me..i was heart broken and very upset. though i don't know why i should be upset over him, i'm really clueless why am i behaving like this.. on thursday, when i suppose to pass him the cd that contains the photos,i don't even dare to face him or even glance his face.. what is happening to me.. in the past, during FOW, i treat him like a friend while he treats me like his little sister.. now that friendship had changed into a hi bye friend.. what's this.. all thanks to the beenox scandalling.. what rubbish la.. i really don't like it.. i don't want any of such thing anymore.. really..it's affecting my emotions.. for now, i want to do well for my term tests.. and get good grades to get me into a local university.. i don't want to have a love realtionship with anybody.. i got my bud terence and my hao jie mei joanne to help me.. orh ba kak, can u treat me like a freind.. no more hi and bye.. i'll do my very best not to msg u kk.. hope u like the ear rings.. i still remembered it was the one that u point out to me on the 2nd day of school when we were at tm.. haha..

it's been my fifth week in school.. i enjoyed school very much.. didn't regret coming to a poly.. my classmates are a bunch of weird people that u don't see very often.. i really hope everyone could do well for the upcoming term tests.. kk.. jia you ba everybody.. THANKS PEI JIN.. thanks for coming to the CCN carnival.. i really had a nice chat with u today.. haha.. jia you kk..

2006-05-21T00:42:00.000+08:00

hey,

haix..i feel so broke today. i have to do my housework for my mom in order to earn some extra allowance to go out for today and tomorrow.. went out my nyjc bballers.. to celebrate wee ter birthday and also conny birthday.. haix.. guess what.. hong qing was there la.. haix.. still very angry about it.. anyway.. went to bought a tee shirt for wee ter today at heren... then at the store, there's this really cute and tan guy working there.. conny actually wanted to get his no. but didn't dare to.. haha.. was so funny la..conny is so auntie la.. went round taking all the free stuffs that were distributed on the street.. haha.. then went to eat at this pepper place.. the food is really nt bad.. i ate curry beef plate... i have to mix my own rice before i can eat.. so cool right..ai ya.. only ppl like me will think so.. haha..

haix.. i'm very tired.. i have to STUDY TOMORROW.. study my oc and pipc first chapter.. going to wake up early to do it.. i still have to go and watch divinci code tomorrow.. haix.. i really prayed hard that i can get hold of tics tomorrow.. haha

that's all for today.. MooMOO~~~~

2006-05-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

hey,

haha..now feeling so relaxed..just finished my HAP and MS quiz..haha..though i feel that the HAP test is like so tough..because they asked us to draw the structure of the skin and label the parts..i don't even know how to draw the structure..oh man.. 4 marks leh..haix.. sad.. maths was ok..there's this two marks question that ask us to write out the answer either in 2 s.f or 1 d.p..haix..that one was really clueless..my biochemwas also ok... haha.. at least i know how to answer all the questions.. haha.. so happy... all my bio tests are over.. now are my chem test which will be next week... organic chem and PIPC..haix..

today time table was the worst la.. from 8-6 la.. crazy la.. PIPC lesson..3 hours.. Organic chem..3 hours..almost died in the lt..haha..llyoid kept making fun of me.. talking about that stupid manager working in the mac..oh man.. i'm going to tell ang go li that u like her..haha...

guess what..during my 2nd break.. i was walking out of the library with my classmates.. going for OC class..guess who i saw at the adventure booth..IT was ORHBAKAK la..oh man.. i didn't notice that he was there. i actually saw nick there..then i went to box his head.. haha.. then i heard someone saying "heng" when i walked away la..then when i turned around.. i saw him..haha.. so happy la..haha.. then i actually told my classmates that i want to go back to the library.. don't want to go for OC lecture..haha.. so crazy over him.. is it a crush..i don't know..but the past two weeks..he's been treating me quite coldly.. no more long msg.. is like i'm always the one msging him..he won't ask me about anything or even msg me.. should i give up..very confuse..or he doesn't know that i like him.. time would solve eveything.. if there's fate.. we will be together.. if not, then i'll just let go..

got lots of decision to make.. but i'm not sure what to choose.. because i'm afraid.. afraid that i will take the wrong move.. tata..MOO MOO~~~

2006-05-17T23:26:00.000+08:00

hey,

oh man..in another few hours i'll be taking my biochem quix..very scared..it's my first bio test so far..haix..now i'm resting for a while..going to carry on my proteins already..very tired.. but i can't sleep until i know all my facts and do my exercise..ok la.. can't write any more.. got to go..MOo Moo~~~

2006-05-16T20:50:00.000+08:00

hey,

haha..now getting people to tag my blog..haha..cartoon la..hmm..today is like a damm long day...i went to school 6 hours before class start..funny person arh..waited for z for half an hour la.. stupid z .. make me look like an idiot in the bus interchange.haix..then in the library..trying my best to memorize the HAP topic on skin..epidemis and dermis ..wah seh..and also another one hypodermis..is an adipose tissue that helps in insulation..not bad right..memorize until like that..haha..then at 2 went to com lab with joanne to do my e lab assesment..then while doing..there's a weird person who keep sending weird msg to my com..so lame la..that stupid eric..kill u the next time round..haix.. gt lots to study..someone please help me to memorize those bi terms.. i really need to do well for my test..shouldn't stress myself too much right..need to go and bathe and then study my biochemistry.. wish me luck kk.. tata..MooMOO~~~

2006-05-15T21:12:00.000+08:00

hey,

today's my brother birthday today.. didn't do much at all..eat dinner..cut cake..thats all.. so boring..but today something amazing happen in school today.. oh man.. i can't believe i finally bump into orh ba kak..haha.. but something terrible happen at the same time.. doctor went to tell orh ba kak that i was thinking of him.. then orh ba kak replied "ya..i'm here what". oh man.. i swear i can kill doctor..oh man.. so very embarrasing la..thinking of it makes my blood boil.. haha...but still.. quite happy to see him..oh no.. all my tests are coming up really soon.. there's biochemistry on thursday.. there's HAP and MS on friday.. all my bio topic are this week.. haix.. going to mug really hard for this topics..jia you ba..haha..need to go back and study already..that's all folks..Moo MOO~~~~~

2006-05-14T14:56:00.000+08:00

hey,

oh man, this is my first blog..haha..thanks yan ping for doing up the template..it's really very nice..haha..hmm..what to say..intro myself ba..i'm charmane.. a normal girl,nth much actually..currently in tp(biomedical science),very stress now..all the tests starts poping out.ha..made a great bunch of friends in school,they are the two bimbos and the two HONG KONG people and beenox people, orhbakak too(i'm telling u, they really rocks) and also my bud(terence) and joanne and my class AG 11(bunch of crazy people)i'll put up their photos if yen ping teach me how to...haha.. in the beginning, poly isn't the kind of school i want to be in..but due to certain circumstances, i'm forced to go to poly.but now, i really enjoy the life i'm having now.. though my pathway to uni now will be slighly tougher..i will nt give up and continue to give my very best in everything i do.haha..yen ping,jia you k.even though u don't quite like ur course now,but u still have to give your very best, if u need help, me, z,eunice and rubber will be there to support u kk.. haha.. ok la.. i don't know what to say already.Moo moo~~~~